3rd post's a charm.

I had written 2 posts prior to writing this one, but decided that this particular post was going to be published. The first post was mostly about how unmotivated I was, so unmotivated that I changed into my running clothes, and ended up going food shopping in them. The next attempted post was about how I still hadn't lost any weight, and wasn't having any good workouts, and feeling like total garbage.

I have registered for 2 Triathlons so far, one on April and one in June. I'm looking at one for September, but I'm a little hesitant because of the distance from my home, and the distances within the race. One of my favorite people has also "talked" me into doing a a half marathon in October with her and her husband; I knew I wouldn't be ready for a half-marathon in May, but I think I can survive one in October. I even (easily) convinced a friend of mine from college to run it too, she just did her first half earlier this month, so she seemed down. I guess I just need a reason to work out, it can't be for losing weight, because that's a dead end street.

I started swimming and riding last weekend, and my ass still hurts from my bike seat. Today's swim was actually a good feeling one, I didn't do much, but I felt better during my swim than I did on my horrible afternoon run.

I haven't been in a very good mood for the last few days, it might even be a week. I have limited patience for people; not just people I dislike, but also people I love, (RB and my parents seem to be the only exceptions), I even snapped at someone at work yesterday; she kind of deserved it. I had a few bad, and weird dreams, which sets me off, I've had a few conversations with alpha males that have aggravated me; I'm aware that I shouldn't get annoyed, it shouldn't get under my skin, but it did. The kids at school have been ridiculously annoying, and I hate to say it, but I want to just simply smack them. The month itself for work has been pretty intense with an overload of after school meetings and paperwork, which doesn't help in keeping me in good spirits. It is what it is I suppose.

As for the rest of my time, I recently went to the doctor, and she told me I was in great shape, healthy, and looking good. That was good to hear, and know that all the working out is at least doing something productive. RB is doing good too! I'm super proud of him, he decided to get prepared foods to help him try to loose weight and kickstart a healthier lifestyle- he's lost 9 lbs in 2 weeks! I'm super proud of him, and I hope he continues to do well, I just wish I wasn't eating dinner by myself every night.

So, the long and the short of this post is simple updates, I suppose.
Some posts to look forward to: Jimmy Fallon, "Bad Words" and Easter/Passover April VACATION...

wahoo for spring!

Surprised.

Originally, I had written a super long post about surprising news I had received last week, however, after reading and rereading the post I have made the decision to not share based on a variety of reasons.

My first reason for trepidation of publishing the post is that I wouldn't want anyone to read it and think that I am judging, because I do not regard myself as a judgmental person, however, as I was reading the post I could easily imagine someone who doesn't know me, or my family themselves reading it and thinking that I am judging specific decisions. Listen, you do what you've got to do in this life; raise your kids the way you want, deem necessary and appropriate; but when you ask my opinion or invite me into your life as a practicing member, you can no longer become angry when I provide you with my honest feelings.

Secondly, I didn't want to open myself up to outside criticism of my family. It's my family and I can say what I want about my family. Don't think for one second that you have earned the right as an outsider to criticize my families choices, even if I invite you in. I become fiercely loyal and can appreciate someone empathizing or agreeing with me and my feelings but I cannot condone any sort of openly judgmental or critical opinions about them. They aren't perfect, but they are mine. I can call them names, but you can't. I'm sure you can all relate to that fierceness.

With all this being said, I wish nothing but the best for my family and friends, i need to remind myself that I cannot rationalize (in my opinion) irrational behavior, and I have to remember that none of it directly effects me, and I have my own problems to contend with.

I'll simply leave it at that.

What's in a Name

I hope you all don't mind, and maybe you didn't even notice it, but, I have changed my profile/account name to better represent myself to others out there. I hope some of you find the humor in it, (I think you'll only find the humor in it because you know my actual name), otherwise, you might just think it's my name, or something stupid. Either way, I like it, and I have to give credit where credit is due; RB came up with the name, and I think it's brilliant.

So, enjoy comments, and the "new look" of Lynmittsky's Memoirs.

It's my BIRD DAY!

Happy Birthday to me!!

Today is my birthday also known as "All about Me day" and Bird Day for how my mom and dad say birthday since I was a kid, so it stuck. I often go back and forth with how I feel about my birthday. Sometimes I want it to go by and be another day, other times I want the love "to reign over me". Luckily, my wonderful RB has made the decision for me. He has decided to make sure I know everyday how important I am to him; so far I have received a gift a day (till Saturday when my family birthday party arrives), he has told me many lovely and wonderful things, and has taken my mind off some unexpected, interesting, shocking news. RB was so excited and sweetly woke me this morning to give me the goods! A lovely hand drawn on coffee mug - I love weird mugs- and tickets to see JT in July! Woot-Woot!

My birthday started with delicious pound cake, strawberries and whipped cream celebration cake on Saturday night with some of our wonderful friends and their awesome kids.

My friends at work took care of me! *Rebecca at work, is one of my good trustworthy friends, and a great person, literally sweet as pie and tough as leather! She baked an amazing cake, (which was all I ate for lunch after a 3 mile run) and I had some other close work friends sing and give me cards and well wishes, which is always so lovely, and meaningful to me. Rebecca also bought me amazing gifts that were completely unnecessary but always appreciated,(straight from my pinterest boards)! My para, and friend, took care of me as well with (more) cake and an awesome GC, with a very sweet card. (I heart cards).

I have this one student who is very sweet, he doesn't have much money, and he is genuinely a good kid. He obviously, comes from a tough background otherwise he wouldn't be a student of mine. He saved his allowance for the past month to buy me a gift and a card for today. He wrote a lovely note inside the card and even included an additional note of "Happy Anniversary" (as it is tomorrow). His mother even came to school today for a meeting and told us that he has a little crush on me, to which me and a friend at work weren't surprised. What a sweet, good kid, even if he hadn't done all that, the fact that he did is amazing, I'll be sad to see him move on to the 7th grade next year, and I don't think he will ever know how much his gesture truly meant to me, and how proud I am of who he is as a young man.*Good Teaching Moment*

As much as I am not a fan of facebook, (personally I like Instagram best), I reluctantly stay a member, and am always surprised by how many people say happy birthday. I get it that it pops up on their feed and such, but they can simply choose to ignore it and not say anything at all. So, when they do, it makes me feel good and loved, and I appreciate that.

I got so many wonderful text messages and 2 phone calls! Texts from people who I know have bigger things on their plate than my birthday and they take the time to text or call is amazing! And, although I will see my family over the weekend, I wish they (as a collective whole) would extend a little extra love, but I get how that might be asking for too much. I have bird day dinner with my wonderful parents, and RB, and I'm overly grateful for that.

My lady friends have sent me a surprise little something along with an etsy gift card, which is totally crazemazing, I'm not sure what to do with it!! I look forward to my extra little surprise.

As for tonight, as I said, dinner of my choice at my parents and cake. I love this dinner because I do not have to do a darn thing! plus, I don't feel guilty about not doing anything either. My parents could get me nothing, other than the wonderfully loving card my mom picks out and the flowers my dad is sure to have tucked under his arm for me, (happy birthday) and my mom (thank you for birthing my baby).

This coming Saturday will be the first time my whole family will be at our apartment for dinner. I am excited about it, I am excited to cook for them, and be home in my house. RB is looking forward to not having to drive and play cards.

I think I enjoy my birthday and hate it all at once because I feel guilty enjoying an "all about me day" but in the same breath I don't want it to end, so I almost prefer we ignore it. silly right?

Happy Bird Day to me, cheers to many years more, may they be happy!

52 miles

That's right, 52 miles. I "ran" 52 miles in the 28 days that February had to offer. Suck it sickness, and pulled hamstring and extra 12 pounds!

Although I am still only down the 4 pounds I lost a few weeks ago, my clothing are starting to fit better, and the close to the same as 12 pounds ago. Oddly enough my stomach hasn't flatten out as much as it has in the past, however, I've been cheating with my no-cheese eating, which also might explain the remaining 8 pounds.

I know I had originally planned to do a a half marathon at the end of May, I have come to realize that is not going to work out to well for me. So, instead, I will be registering for a (short) triathlon a month beginning in April till September. I'm a little fearful, but also looking forward to it.

I really have been having a good time packing on the miles against Jenski and I feel like as soon as the weather warms up she's going to be rocking me on the mileage. I have to keep working at it, getting faster, and packing those miles.

For now, 52 miles down, a bagillion to go...